I’m out in the middle of fucking nowhere sitting on top of my bed in a sweltering nondescript bungalow, while my friend, James, violently expels whatever amoeba-like creatures snuck past his defenses. The scene is a bit better than before, however. At least now I’m no longer in the porta-potty sized toilet-shower, painting porcelain with volcanic porridge while James staggers beside me, periodically vomiting onto … Continue reading Blurred Misadventures
I cannot bear this world. There is no way for me to force this pursuit of perfection to culminate into palpable reality. These facts are actually the good news about life. There is nothing to achieve by force. I cannot take heaven by laying siege to it. I am and always will be here, now. To the extent the illusion of benefit by control is … Continue reading Brief Respite from Illusion
Scraping toward extinction Fear shatters all Fleeing Fear… does the same Concepts fail, I fail The mystic begs for this Is anguish through this Stretched beyond infinite Clinging to life and death Belonging to neither Stars are born here, Gods are born here I do not belong here Where is the nomad to reside? Light does not reach these depths Continue reading Horizon
Here we are again let the darkness begin one foot, the other too next… come up quick in the queue Yes, I’ve been here before Two weeks. No last week right there on that floor. I learned, but I went back to the black Sign here? Ok. What about my backpack? Hold onto it, in that side blue room When I’m out again, I’ll be … Continue reading Wretch
It wells up like a wave, Driven upon the earth and surging forward. And released from the grasp of sky. Roaring through the fall. Then pulled away once more… To the abyss of eternity. Each wave swells into crisp, fresh form. Faded memory makes this so. And so the abyss beckons recollections of past. Soon we lose past. Future. We are the wave, the abyss … Continue reading Wave of Eternity
2/11/17 I’ll bring the would-be reader up to speed with the lot of what has transpired as of late. Or, at least how it appears events have transpired. As I had mentioned in a previous entry, I went to Tucson to speak with the admissions director and Doctor Crenshaw partly to make sure that my application is in order and also to create an interview … Continue reading The Absurd Happenings in Higher Education
I don’t care to put this tirade into a box to be put on the shelf, so it will speak for itself. The pain and irony of life has come to pay a visit today. I can’t turn a blind eye to what I see and feel on a daily basis while journeying across these lands. Every nook, every corner, every moment, every word spoken … Continue reading The Privilege of Discontent
I am at pains to detail every twist and turn that transpired while in Bangkok for the inception of my travels in Thailand, and every hour spent here could contain enough material for several blog posts. Whether it’s the adrenaline-infused motorcycle taxi ride through the city, staying at a 4 star hotel for the price of a couple burritos at Chipotle, wandering through endless night … Continue reading Not All that Glitters is Gold
After living the disorienting day-and-a-half long stress-filled dash to Bangkok, I walked (or floated) off the plane and into the labyrinth of moving sidewalks, flashy advertisements, and confused pedestrians. All of us desire to disappear to our own nook awaiting in the city, but customs must first be handled. I finally found a port where I can awkwardly stumble through documentation while being evaluated by … Continue reading Bangkok Boogie
I’m still in a pressurized capsule in the sky, but a little further west than the last entry (They’re actually landing and taking off again in Tokyo, Japan. It’s just a small detail they forgot to mention when I purchased these tickets. Remember when I mentioned ambiguity?). Led Zeppelin is cranked up to the tune of heavy turbulence (Or, is it the other way … Continue reading Hawaii Never Sets in My Heart
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